A Year Ago

It is hard to believe a year has passed since Hadley was in the hospital with a virus from hell who would have thought she would end back there this year. I have never felt so helpless in all my life on this the very last day of 2009. Hadley was not feeling well so instead of her going up to spend the day with her Aunt Kari I told Kacy that I would keep her with me, Kacy was running late so I told her I would meet her at Kari's while she unloaded Wesley Ann I put Hadley in the car with me she woke up long enough to tell me she was not feeling good. I got her home laid her on the bed and she told me we wanted to watch the Strawberry Shortcake movie so I popped it in and set out to find the baby monitor I had put it away a long time ago but something told me to get it out and plug it back in. It was not long before she had fallen to sleep once again, so I went into the kitchen and started to clean, with every noise she made I would go and check on her. She had been asleep about a hour when I could hear her waking up, I gave her a little kiss on her forehead and told her she felt warm and that I needed to take her temp she started to fight with me about it, no sooner had I turned my back to pick up the thermometer when she went into a seizure. It is hard to explain the fear I felt as I picked her up ran for the phone and called 911 I have no memory of time it just seemed to take forever as I talked to the dispatcher making sure she had the right address and me pleading for them to hurry.Then I heard her call my name I knew the dispatcher who was on the other end of the line with me as soon as I knew who it was I felt calmer as we talked I told her where Kacy was and she told me she would call her , soon I had paramedics and an ambulance crew in with Hadley and I. Asking me questions and Hadley laying in my arms even with them there I was helpless we went over her history , we discussed where she needed to go. I told them I wanted her to go to Primary Children's hospital but they informed me she needed to get somewhere quicker so that left me with two choices the hospital that had messed up on my Dad a few years back or the other one, I chose the other one. By then they were talking to Kacy as she drove to my house she was close enough they could wait for her , I carried Hadley into the ambulance while Kacy got her gear together to make the ride with Hadley. So that is how we spent our last day of the year, in a emergency room with Hadley being poked, prodded and x rayed. No real clue as to the sudden spike in temp that resulted in the seizure. Luckily Hadley has no memory of it either or her first ride in an ambulance and her first 5 hours spent in the ER. By the next day she was up and changing into her many tutu's, singing and dancing! She is forever my * LITTLE SUNSHINE*